A Game of Chess

My boys and I play chess, they are very good at it!  Now anyone who knows me, knows that when it is game time- I play to win, no matter who is on the opposing team! I am a Momma that will take her boys down, and I am not afraid to say it! LOL....all in fun of course, I'm am not a mean competitive person- mouthy- but not mean.  I just love playing games and having fun! That being said, I must also say...my boys beat me at chess most of the time, like I said they are very good at it; they see moves way ahead of time, they have great strategies, and can plan out how to win far in advance.

Unfortunately, we have an enemy that plays this game very well also; however, he plays to destroy.  He knows his adversary well, and he knows the strategies to corner them into defeat....read further for instructions on how to win-every time!

The devil's key move against me is to create circumstances in which I will be left feeling completely unloved, like a failure, like everything is my fault, and like everything is wrong with me- the battle against insecurity.
I married a man that was not a christian...he was very emotionally abusive, manipulative, deceitful, and domineering. The devil used that situation to create a dark, destructive pit for me to dwell in for awhile. Everything was my fault in our relationship- or so he told me and I believed. I was not pleasing enough to him, giving enough, I did nothing right, I was unworthy and unloved.
These last 8 years on my own, God has given me strength to fight the devil back in the battle against insecurity, and God has done amazing things in my heart, mind, and life in order to daily be transforming me into a strong, confident woman of God.  My passion is to work with others to build their Christ-confidence, allowing them to always know and believe the truth- they are "wonderfully made" by a Jesus who loves them UNCONDITIONALLY.

Guess who does not like this....an enemy who knows how to play chess.  Last night he picked and unsuspecting pawn to come in from an angle I did not see, and strike hard. Opening old wounds of insecurity as the words of this person sounded too familiar.  Telling me everything was my fault, I was wrong, I was not acting like a Christian, and the worst part of all....throwing my past in my face; past mistakes that I have actually learned from and God used to create a stronger woman, and definitely a smarter women....a past God use to build me...but the devil wants to use to break me. A past that a sinister Satan wants to use to remind me I am unworthy. However, you see the enemy has forgotten my key player that makes my opponent incapable of moving any further in the game, a player that allows me my undefeated record- JESUS CHRIST- CHECK MATE!

You see, I am not that weak girl lying on the bathroom floor gripping a bottle of pills contemplating ending my worthless life anymore.  I am a wonderfully made child of God!  I will have moments of weakness, even moments where I was not sure I would be able to keep breathing from the choking grip of insecurity, but those moments pass with the power of praise and prayer!  Calling on Jesus in the mist of my weakness, and when I find my self surrounded by blinding walls of defeat, I see the nail-scarred hand reach out and hold onto mine.  Pulling me up from the pit, He puts me in His strong arms and soothes my spirit; allowing peace to take over the pain.  Not only does He remind me of who He is, he also reminds me of who I am...I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND HE IS FOR ME!

In a world full of fighting, hatred, bitterness, backstabbers, cheaters, liars, and an enemy lurking around using anything and anyone to be destructive tools in his game, it is important to know how to fight back- it is important to know that Jesus is for you!  He is on your side and He comes with all the power, all the wisdom, all the mercy, all the joy, and all the peace!  Remember that he loves you unconditionally and He is there for you.  I had Kari Jobe's song "You Are For Me" on replay last night (very powerful song and it is on my Music on My Mind page check it out).  We need that reminder often- we are worthy and we are wonderfully created by a Savior who loves us. Whisper that to your heart, tell it to your mind, speak it out loud, share it with others, and shout it at Satan!  When we call on Jesus, the devil has to flee...GAME OVER! And then the best part for a girl who likes victory- WE WIN!

STAND IN CONFIDENCE TODAY!