Let me talk a little bit about comfort foods...because if you have read my little bio, you would notice talking and eating are my two main talents...lol. So, one of my favorite comfort foods to make is a banana sandwich; let me describe this sweet indulgence to you. First you lightly toast two waffles. Then you spread them with thick, creamy peanut butter and some marshmallow fluff (this can get messy, but they yummy concoction overrides the clean-up frustrations). Then you slice up the banana and place the slices all over your sandwich. But...we are not done yet...for extra sweetness, you then throw some mini chocolate chips on there, pour yourself a large glass of cold milk and....mmmmmmmmmmm....enjoy!
This seems to make things all better after a rough day. But lately I have been having a rough few months, soooo, I can engorge myself on a few of these each day, and then no longer be able to fit out the door (because if you are good at quickly examining food and evaluating calories, the above ingredients are probably far off the charts of a nutritious snack), or I need to find another source of comfort! Or should I say, I need to remember my true source of comfort....
While searching for some instrumental music for my classroom (I always start the mornings off playing music while the students are coming in), I found a few wonderful, relaxing, and renewing albums. This is a link to the one I am playing right now, and downloading from itunes by Julie True: http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/breathe-you-in/id338093009
It is titled Breath You In...this is what we all need to stop and do right now...in Isaiah, His word instructs us to "be still and know that I am God", and still is defiantly not a word that normally describes me, or my mind. I have been going full charge now for a long time...
I feel like one of those cartoon characters, such as Wile E Coyote, who has just been electrocuted/fried/blown-up, and then turns into a pile of soot and ashes. I am that pile on the ground. Done. Nothing left.
And in the mist of my mess, I feel like my two precious children have paid the price. I have been so negative, stressed, angry, and overwhelmed. So I have collapsed at my Savior's feet last night and cried out to Him for strength, peace, and wisdom. I just want to soak in his presence, breathe in His peace, bask in His glory. I want to stop. I want to be still. And I want more of Him.
I can, like we all do, search for answers and comfort in so many places, but I will never find exactly what I am looking for until I completely release myself to Him, and allow Him to truly be my ultimate source. I can claim this well known promise to be mine, "they that wait upon the Lord, shall renew their strength, they shall run and not grow weary".
My Jesus is faithful, He is there at the call of His name...and I know that He has me in His arms of comfort and everything....will be OK. So today on our to do list: just breathe.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Chosen
Spending over 7 years alone, I have far too often cried out in loneliness to anyone who will listen, "Why doesn't a single man on this planet want me???!!!"
But today I remembered...the Creator of this planet does. He chose me. He loves me. And it is an everlasting and unconditional love that compares to nothing else.
But today I remembered...the Creator of this planet does. He chose me. He loves me. And it is an everlasting and unconditional love that compares to nothing else.
Photo taken by: Melissa Dillon
Saturday, January 8, 2011
why can't i?
Why can't I take the advice I give out to others? Does anyone else struggle with this? Especially when I give advice to my own boys...
Talking to Riley one day, I was telling him to stop saying "I can't" because by saying that you have already failed before you have even started.
It was as if God himself hollered into a megaphone right inside my ear, "DID YOU HEAR WHAT YOU JUST SAID????"
This has happened a lot lately with different things I have said to my boys. Children will learn more by what they see than what they hear. I need to be leading by example.
My negative mood has dramatically effected the atmosphere of my home. And that must change. My insecurity has once again plowed right over me, leaving me devastated and depressed. And that must change. My words have been destructive, defeating, and degrading. And that must change. NOW!
I know times can get tough, and it has been down right unbearable lately as I have argued with God on the verse "does not put more on you than you can bear". "I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN, LORD!!! And if I am, can't I at least get a cape and the ability to fly with the job!!!" (It would make visiting family in OH much easier!)
But, in the mist of it all, I know my God is faithful. He will renew my strength, joy and peace of mind. Look forward to more positive post to come!
Talking to Riley one day, I was telling him to stop saying "I can't" because by saying that you have already failed before you have even started.
It was as if God himself hollered into a megaphone right inside my ear, "DID YOU HEAR WHAT YOU JUST SAID????"
This has happened a lot lately with different things I have said to my boys. Children will learn more by what they see than what they hear. I need to be leading by example.
My negative mood has dramatically effected the atmosphere of my home. And that must change. My insecurity has once again plowed right over me, leaving me devastated and depressed. And that must change. My words have been destructive, defeating, and degrading. And that must change. NOW!
I know times can get tough, and it has been down right unbearable lately as I have argued with God on the verse "does not put more on you than you can bear". "I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN, LORD!!! And if I am, can't I at least get a cape and the ability to fly with the job!!!" (It would make visiting family in OH much easier!)
But, in the mist of it all, I know my God is faithful. He will renew my strength, joy and peace of mind. Look forward to more positive post to come!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
JUMP
Playing Just Dance 2 on the Wii is our new favorite thing to do in this house. The boys and I've got the moves!! LOL. Not only is it a lot of fun, but it is also a great workout! And since I am over 30 and chocolate is my best friend...than this is a good thing! One of our favorite songs to shake it to is Jump by Kris Kross (Studio Allstars)...you know, "Daddy Mack a make you jump, jump. Kris Kross a make you jump, jump!" Those two, young, funky boys who wore their clothes backwards really know how to get your heart pumpin'! So...it is time to jump into a new year!
New years resolutions are a good thing in the sense that goal setting of course is good. But don't stress over them. I say just jump for joy this year! Just focus on the positive things in life, and live life joyfully. That is what I want to focus on; the joy of the Lord filling my home. I love the sound of my boys laughing. I love seeing them dance and play, using their imagination. I love the dimples that explode on Riley's face when he is full of joy. I love the strong unexpected hugs from Brayden when he is in the rare mood to cuddle. But I don't just want to sit back and watch...I want to join in the fun and live full of abundant joy. I want to get up and dance! I want to stop sitting back and being in this mood I have been in, and I want to just live an abundant life that God has blessed me with.
Just jump for joy. That is my new years resolution.
Well...that and get back to my love of cooking...I want to have time to enjoy cooking again. I want to stop looking at the negative side of things...like the chore of cooking...and just enjoy things again.
If you are someone who suffers from depression, insecurity, or a negative mindset...my prayers are with you. I personally understand the torment. But I also very much personally know there is hope and joy found in Christ. Seek Him with your whole heart this year, and just jump into His arms of love.
P.S. Please ignore the mess in the background of the video...we had just unpacked the car from the long drive back from Ohio. LOL. And I really wish the sound on the TV was up lounder! Now what mom says that?! Told ya we like to rock out in this house!
"As you listen to my cool smooth melody the daddy will make ya J - U - MP"
New years resolutions are a good thing in the sense that goal setting of course is good. But don't stress over them. I say just jump for joy this year! Just focus on the positive things in life, and live life joyfully. That is what I want to focus on; the joy of the Lord filling my home. I love the sound of my boys laughing. I love seeing them dance and play, using their imagination. I love the dimples that explode on Riley's face when he is full of joy. I love the strong unexpected hugs from Brayden when he is in the rare mood to cuddle. But I don't just want to sit back and watch...I want to join in the fun and live full of abundant joy. I want to get up and dance! I want to stop sitting back and being in this mood I have been in, and I want to just live an abundant life that God has blessed me with.
Just jump for joy. That is my new years resolution.
Well...that and get back to my love of cooking...I want to have time to enjoy cooking again. I want to stop looking at the negative side of things...like the chore of cooking...and just enjoy things again.
If you are someone who suffers from depression, insecurity, or a negative mindset...my prayers are with you. I personally understand the torment. But I also very much personally know there is hope and joy found in Christ. Seek Him with your whole heart this year, and just jump into His arms of love.
P.S. Please ignore the mess in the background of the video...we had just unpacked the car from the long drive back from Ohio. LOL. And I really wish the sound on the TV was up lounder! Now what mom says that?! Told ya we like to rock out in this house!
"As you listen to my cool smooth melody the daddy will make ya J - U - MP"
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